Hey, a girl's allowed to brag, every once in a while.
Now, if you'll excuse me, I need to go and tie a pillow to my butt as, once he sees this post, he's gonna kick it (after he stops laughing that is...).
Saturday, July 29, 2006
Oh By The Way...
...I just wanted to reiterate the fact that my husband-to-be is not only the most romantic guy around...he's also a spunk...!
Hey, a girl's allowed to brag, every once in a while.
Now, if you'll excuse me, I need to go and tie a pillow to my butt as, once he sees this post, he's gonna kick it (after he stops laughing that is...).
Hey, a girl's allowed to brag, every once in a while.
Now, if you'll excuse me, I need to go and tie a pillow to my butt as, once he sees this post, he's gonna kick it (after he stops laughing that is...).
Mantra
Reading back over all the posts I have made since being back Australia-Side (mental note: change the sub-heading on this blog, Dorothy aint in Toronto anymo').
Man, do I sound whiny!
I, along with Josh, find ourselves repeating the mantra: Stay Positive, stay positive, stay positive.....
A lot on our plate this year but we do have so many things that are good. To stay positive about. We've just got a lot to get through and it's proving to be a challenge. Yet, when we do get through it, we'll have learnt a thing or two and become stronger for it.
So yes, it's all good and positive and I won't hear a word otherwise!
I do, however, reserve the right to bitch about it in the process....haha
Man, do I sound whiny!
I, along with Josh, find ourselves repeating the mantra: Stay Positive, stay positive, stay positive.....
A lot on our plate this year but we do have so many things that are good. To stay positive about. We've just got a lot to get through and it's proving to be a challenge. Yet, when we do get through it, we'll have learnt a thing or two and become stronger for it.
So yes, it's all good and positive and I won't hear a word otherwise!
I do, however, reserve the right to bitch about it in the process....haha
Sunday, July 23, 2006
More wedding stuff
Just showing you the location and the gazebo we are getting married in...
I also just discovered, in my search for photos of it, that the gazebo is the exact same one which was filmed for Lost, for the scene where Jack married Sara. Though, in the Lost photo, there is a rogue tree....maybe a prop lol? It was a flashback scene, which Lost fans would know. It was the 'Do No Harm' episode.
Here is the reception ballroom we have had booked for us by Susan...note the loverrrly waterfall in the background, in the garden :-)
We are having 'food stations' as they are a cheaper alternative to a fixed menu. There will be different food stations, manned by a chef/s, where guests can choose from. Buffet-style, if you will. We had a large and varied choice but we ended up going for safe options; the requisite hors d'oeuvres to start, a pasta station, varied pasta with a couple of different sauce choices such as bolognese, a 'create-your own-salad' station (the choice in salads look yummy too), stir fry with a choice of chicken or a vegetarian alternative and we chose the ice-cream option for dessert, which gives you either vanilla or chocolate ice cream with a delicious list of add-ons such as chopped macadamia nuts, cookie nuggets, strawberries, blueberries, chocolate sauce etc etc, along with coffee and tea. Most people like ice-cream and we're keeping in mind there will also be wedding cake, (possibly chocolate mud-cake?) ...which is friendly to ice cream.
It's funny, it looks like our wedding choices are expensive. Our choices; location, food, using a wedding planner etc look that way but aren't blowing our budget really. Having a destination wedding might look like a more costly alternative to a wedding in your home city but it can cost the same in the long run, depending on how creative you get and getting the right people in to help plan it.
I also just discovered, in my search for photos of it, that the gazebo is the exact same one which was filmed for Lost, for the scene where Jack married Sara. Though, in the Lost photo, there is a rogue tree....maybe a prop lol? It was a flashback scene, which Lost fans would know. It was the 'Do No Harm' episode.
Here is the reception ballroom we have had booked for us by Susan...note the loverrrly waterfall in the background, in the garden :-)
We are having 'food stations' as they are a cheaper alternative to a fixed menu. There will be different food stations, manned by a chef/s, where guests can choose from. Buffet-style, if you will. We had a large and varied choice but we ended up going for safe options; the requisite hors d'oeuvres to start, a pasta station, varied pasta with a couple of different sauce choices such as bolognese, a 'create-your own-salad' station (the choice in salads look yummy too), stir fry with a choice of chicken or a vegetarian alternative and we chose the ice-cream option for dessert, which gives you either vanilla or chocolate ice cream with a delicious list of add-ons such as chopped macadamia nuts, cookie nuggets, strawberries, blueberries, chocolate sauce etc etc, along with coffee and tea. Most people like ice-cream and we're keeping in mind there will also be wedding cake, (possibly chocolate mud-cake?) ...which is friendly to ice cream.
It's funny, it looks like our wedding choices are expensive. Our choices; location, food, using a wedding planner etc look that way but aren't blowing our budget really. Having a destination wedding might look like a more costly alternative to a wedding in your home city but it can cost the same in the long run, depending on how creative you get and getting the right people in to help plan it.
Going to the Hawaii and we're ....
...gonna get Maurrrrri-ed.
Sorry, cheap play on words, bad pun and all....couldn't resist.
The date has been set. We set it a while ago but I've had computer-itus and haven't played nice with the net enough in recent months so just haven't blogged any news. We're gettin hitched overlooking the ocean in Oahu (Oh-Are-You) on May 31st 2007. Sounds like a goooood date to us.
We've had the rings made and they're beyootiful! I wanna wear mine now! Josh, as a wedding gift, 'secretly' had a necklace made for me by the same jewellery company who have made our wedding rings. Which he will give to me the night before, or on the day, for me to wear on our wedding day, with the view to passing it down to any daughter/s we might have...or a daughter-in-law. It sounds, from what he has described, beautiful! He felt he had to run it by me in case I went ahead and bought a necklace which matched other jewellery I might wear on the day and he also wanted to make sure I loved it. It involves white gold, a celtic design and a London Blue Topaz (the topaz being one of my favourite jewels).
The wedding photogs have also been booked. I found them on the WPJA site (Wedding Photojournalist Association)and we looked at their gallery and I was really impressed. They are a husband/wife team who reside in Ohau.Which was obviously important to us as it cut out the cost of flying a photog to Hawaii.The reason why I first clicked on their website was their location and the fact that their company name attracted me; Alluring Grace. Josh has spoken to them via email and phone and from the sounds of it, they are a fantastic couple, so I can't wait to meet them!
Here they are, go peek!
The first thing we actually booked was a wedding planner, who has had 20 years of planning weddings, particularly destination weddings. A couple of people have asked us why we booked a wedding planner, out of curiousity, as it seems an unneccessary and possibly extravagant expense.
The reasoning is simple; if we were having the wedding in Melbourne, where we knew the lay of the land, could meet with people face to face etc....well we would do it all ourselves. The wedding is going to be in Hawaii, however, where we don't know who is who and can't do the legwork, meet people, suss out who is legit and who might rip us off, which locations are stunning and which have been glorified in the internet photos etc. Susan, our wedding planner, knows Hawaii and has planned so many weddings there that she steers us straight to the places and people she knows are awesome. She gives us options, we decide, she does the planning,legwork and booking and we show up on the day. It certainly cuts out a lot of potential stress and all at the flat rate of $450. She gets so excited about it all too.Planning wonderful, memorable weddings for the couple is her passion. We were leaning towards Turtle Bay resort but she told us to steer clear because the place has been subject to union strikes and staff walking out on weddings and whatnot, leaving couples in the lurch. If you're interested in a wedding planner down the track, or even right now, I've listed her website a little further down. She is based in Vancouver but deals in quite a few different locations worldwide.
She is simply a wonderful lady! She gives us great options on everything, from table arrangements to music etc. With table decs, she sent us an option that I really liked, a simple orchid sitting in a low, square glass vase in water, with the head of the flower bending over....oh hang on I'll just show you instead, eh....
The flower is cool, we can either have that or a similiar one, I have to look and see what I like best. I'm not the biggest flower-fan although, don't get me wrong, I do love flowers but I'd rather keep costs down and flowers are expensive. When it comes to weddings, the flowers reign in the bouquet stakes. However, as far as decorating is concerned, I'm more of a 'candles everywhere' kinda chicky. That whole 'gothic romantic' kinda feel.
Anyway, c'mon, we're getting married overlooking the ocean, in Hawaii! The surroundings are so beautiful....flowers, greenery, ocean and sand, all in every direction you could look in and a sun preparing to begin setting....you tell me....do we really need to pay for flowers?
The reception willl be held in a ballroom that will open out to our own private garden area that has a waterfall as it's central feature. I don't think we need to worry a whole lot about decorating.
The resort we are having the wedding at also has something that completely sold me as soon as I heard about it; a massive lagoon within it's grounds that is home to six dolphins. And, yes, you can swim with them for a fee. One of my dreams, on my 'must-do-before-I-die' list, is to swim with dolphins! At first I was a bit, I dunno, hesitant about the idea because I don't like when animals, mammals and whathaveyou, are held in captivity. On further investigation though, I found that the resort has a conservation/education program in place, they really take care of the dolphins and are committed to the education of people in regards to conservation.
Here's the wedding planner....
Wedding Lady
Anyway, mum, my sisters and I are planning to go dress hunting on my birthday weekend, three weeks from now. Wow, I just realized as I was typing that last sentence that it will be almost a year to the day that Josh proposed to me, when I dress-hunt. It's been a YEAR already?!?
Sorry, cheap play on words, bad pun and all....couldn't resist.
The date has been set. We set it a while ago but I've had computer-itus and haven't played nice with the net enough in recent months so just haven't blogged any news. We're gettin hitched overlooking the ocean in Oahu (Oh-Are-You) on May 31st 2007. Sounds like a goooood date to us.
We've had the rings made and they're beyootiful! I wanna wear mine now! Josh, as a wedding gift, 'secretly' had a necklace made for me by the same jewellery company who have made our wedding rings. Which he will give to me the night before, or on the day, for me to wear on our wedding day, with the view to passing it down to any daughter/s we might have...or a daughter-in-law. It sounds, from what he has described, beautiful! He felt he had to run it by me in case I went ahead and bought a necklace which matched other jewellery I might wear on the day and he also wanted to make sure I loved it. It involves white gold, a celtic design and a London Blue Topaz (the topaz being one of my favourite jewels).
The wedding photogs have also been booked. I found them on the WPJA site (Wedding Photojournalist Association)and we looked at their gallery and I was really impressed. They are a husband/wife team who reside in Ohau.Which was obviously important to us as it cut out the cost of flying a photog to Hawaii.The reason why I first clicked on their website was their location and the fact that their company name attracted me; Alluring Grace. Josh has spoken to them via email and phone and from the sounds of it, they are a fantastic couple, so I can't wait to meet them!
Here they are, go peek!
The first thing we actually booked was a wedding planner, who has had 20 years of planning weddings, particularly destination weddings. A couple of people have asked us why we booked a wedding planner, out of curiousity, as it seems an unneccessary and possibly extravagant expense.
The reasoning is simple; if we were having the wedding in Melbourne, where we knew the lay of the land, could meet with people face to face etc....well we would do it all ourselves. The wedding is going to be in Hawaii, however, where we don't know who is who and can't do the legwork, meet people, suss out who is legit and who might rip us off, which locations are stunning and which have been glorified in the internet photos etc. Susan, our wedding planner, knows Hawaii and has planned so many weddings there that she steers us straight to the places and people she knows are awesome. She gives us options, we decide, she does the planning,legwork and booking and we show up on the day. It certainly cuts out a lot of potential stress and all at the flat rate of $450. She gets so excited about it all too.Planning wonderful, memorable weddings for the couple is her passion. We were leaning towards Turtle Bay resort but she told us to steer clear because the place has been subject to union strikes and staff walking out on weddings and whatnot, leaving couples in the lurch. If you're interested in a wedding planner down the track, or even right now, I've listed her website a little further down. She is based in Vancouver but deals in quite a few different locations worldwide.
She is simply a wonderful lady! She gives us great options on everything, from table arrangements to music etc. With table decs, she sent us an option that I really liked, a simple orchid sitting in a low, square glass vase in water, with the head of the flower bending over....oh hang on I'll just show you instead, eh....
The flower is cool, we can either have that or a similiar one, I have to look and see what I like best. I'm not the biggest flower-fan although, don't get me wrong, I do love flowers but I'd rather keep costs down and flowers are expensive. When it comes to weddings, the flowers reign in the bouquet stakes. However, as far as decorating is concerned, I'm more of a 'candles everywhere' kinda chicky. That whole 'gothic romantic' kinda feel.
Anyway, c'mon, we're getting married overlooking the ocean, in Hawaii! The surroundings are so beautiful....flowers, greenery, ocean and sand, all in every direction you could look in and a sun preparing to begin setting....you tell me....do we really need to pay for flowers?
The reception willl be held in a ballroom that will open out to our own private garden area that has a waterfall as it's central feature. I don't think we need to worry a whole lot about decorating.
The resort we are having the wedding at also has something that completely sold me as soon as I heard about it; a massive lagoon within it's grounds that is home to six dolphins. And, yes, you can swim with them for a fee. One of my dreams, on my 'must-do-before-I-die' list, is to swim with dolphins! At first I was a bit, I dunno, hesitant about the idea because I don't like when animals, mammals and whathaveyou, are held in captivity. On further investigation though, I found that the resort has a conservation/education program in place, they really take care of the dolphins and are committed to the education of people in regards to conservation.
Here's the wedding planner....
Wedding Lady
Anyway, mum, my sisters and I are planning to go dress hunting on my birthday weekend, three weeks from now. Wow, I just realized as I was typing that last sentence that it will be almost a year to the day that Josh proposed to me, when I dress-hunt. It's been a YEAR already?!?
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
This Is Not A Whiny Post
I promise...
I have reflected on the most recent entries I have made on this blog and had a compulsion to delete one or two of them, as no one likes a whiner, not even I.
But no, thats what I felt at that particular moment and this is me, warts, whininess and all. This is probably what a lot of people go through, when trying to re-establish oneself...be it in another country or ones home country. Also, this is what many couples go through to, when they're each from a different country. It's a relationship that definitely has it's mettle put to the test, by fire. Some sadly end up melting, others grow stronger from the experience.
It's becoming more common too, in this internet age that we have truly entered. More and more people are meeting online and spilling out into 'real world'. They face obstacles, distance being the first and big issue. Their relationship translating well in 'real world'....well that's also another issue which hopefully gets sorted out as soon as they both start daydreaming and getting serious about each other. Immigration, working out which one tears themself away from family and friends, finding work in a new country and learning the lay of their new land, all while balancing the heady days of the first stages of love...
The balancing act is fit for the finest circus performer.
I'm applying for jobs. I'm up to five rejections and counting. Two of those rejections happened in the same day and I could only laugh. Josh just went for an interview for a position that doesnt really exist yet but the guy read through his resume and spoke to him for about ten minutes on the phone and was long-sighted enough to know Josh will be a valuable asset to any security firm. They met about an hour or so ago and the guy wants to create a position for Josh, with plans to make headway into a new promising direction within the company. Josh cold-called this company, after being told by other companies "No, we don't have any positions open" or "Get your security licence and then we'll talk". They didnt really listen to Josh telling them that he couldnt get a security licence because of his visa and also, he has done his time on the front-line in the security field and wants to now explore other aspects of the biz.
So I'm proud of his initiative. It's not the end result (which I hope comes to fruition), it's the attitude and perserverence in the journey towards it that matters.
We're hanging in there and staying positive.
I wish 'staying positive' paid the rent, debt and bills though lol....
I have reflected on the most recent entries I have made on this blog and had a compulsion to delete one or two of them, as no one likes a whiner, not even I.
But no, thats what I felt at that particular moment and this is me, warts, whininess and all. This is probably what a lot of people go through, when trying to re-establish oneself...be it in another country or ones home country. Also, this is what many couples go through to, when they're each from a different country. It's a relationship that definitely has it's mettle put to the test, by fire. Some sadly end up melting, others grow stronger from the experience.
It's becoming more common too, in this internet age that we have truly entered. More and more people are meeting online and spilling out into 'real world'. They face obstacles, distance being the first and big issue. Their relationship translating well in 'real world'....well that's also another issue which hopefully gets sorted out as soon as they both start daydreaming and getting serious about each other. Immigration, working out which one tears themself away from family and friends, finding work in a new country and learning the lay of their new land, all while balancing the heady days of the first stages of love...
The balancing act is fit for the finest circus performer.
I'm applying for jobs. I'm up to five rejections and counting. Two of those rejections happened in the same day and I could only laugh. Josh just went for an interview for a position that doesnt really exist yet but the guy read through his resume and spoke to him for about ten minutes on the phone and was long-sighted enough to know Josh will be a valuable asset to any security firm. They met about an hour or so ago and the guy wants to create a position for Josh, with plans to make headway into a new promising direction within the company. Josh cold-called this company, after being told by other companies "No, we don't have any positions open" or "Get your security licence and then we'll talk". They didnt really listen to Josh telling them that he couldnt get a security licence because of his visa and also, he has done his time on the front-line in the security field and wants to now explore other aspects of the biz.
So I'm proud of his initiative. It's not the end result (which I hope comes to fruition), it's the attitude and perserverence in the journey towards it that matters.
We're hanging in there and staying positive.
I wish 'staying positive' paid the rent, debt and bills though lol....
Thursday, July 06, 2006
A New View
Since I've been back in Australia, I've seen a side of it that,frankly, is unfriendly.
I've never been privy to it, being someone born and raised here it was a side that never showed it's upturned nose to me.
Being an immigrant here is bloody tough.
Forget about the blood-letting immigration department, who are responsible for dealing out misinformation time after time. It's a rigorous, bumpy and long road with this government department, my friends, but lets put them aside for the time being.
So far, three months in, walls have been thrown up at my fiance at every turn. He bloody tries his damndest, gets up and showers and dresses every morning and is proactive in his search for a job. I've never met anyone who looks for a job as hard as he does. Unfortunately, he is having a hard time meeting anyone willing to give him a chance.
Well, one tabaret in the city took him on, on a casual, part time basis. But there's a couple of so called 'managers' there that just give him a hard time....because they're just bitches. He was doing his job tonight and a guy walked up to the bar, which Josh was covering for the bar attendant who went off somewhere. The guy ordered some drinks and wanted the seniors discount and when Josh asked politely to see his seniors card (just because you're older does not automatically mean you possess a seniors card) the guy started yelling at him and abusing him, calling Josh names and being a general asshole.
In the end, what did the manager do? Apologized to the guy and really paid Josh out, ending up by telling Josh "I don't want to deal with you right now, I don't wanna look at you, get out of my hair...".
Never even asked Josh for his side of the story. If you're a manager, isnt that one of the things you ask, when you're both in the office?
I came to see him after work, some time after this happened. Josh was telling me quietly what happened, when one of the friends of the abusive guy came up to Josh and apologized for his friends behaviour. Josh said it was fine, and talked to the guy a bit. Then, 5 minutes later, the abusive guy walked past, brushed right beside Josh and gave him and me a look. Walked by a couple of times. Wasnt even man enough to apologize for his own behaviour.
I had to refrain hard from giving the guy a piece of my mind. What an asshole!!!
The message Josh got tonight from both managers; the customer is always right and that their establishment are not interested in making sure the rights of staff are respected at ALL. Customers can speak how they want to staff. Josh learnt that some female staff have been called all sorts of degrading names. Nothing is ever said to the customer. Staff are just supposed to wear it because "thats the way this industry is".
Bullshit.
What kind of establishment lets this happen?! One that isn't run well and does not treat staff well.
We are trying our hardest to make a life here in Australia and I'm seeing for myself how hard it is for a new settler to even cop a break in this country. The one job that Josh has managed to score for himself is this poorly managed 'establishment'. Very frustrating.
I had a much friendlier reception in Canada then Josh is getting here, generally speaking.
I used to think this country was the shiznit. Starting to feel like we'd be better off in Toronto. Actually, wishing we were back there.
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!
I've never been privy to it, being someone born and raised here it was a side that never showed it's upturned nose to me.
Being an immigrant here is bloody tough.
Forget about the blood-letting immigration department, who are responsible for dealing out misinformation time after time. It's a rigorous, bumpy and long road with this government department, my friends, but lets put them aside for the time being.
So far, three months in, walls have been thrown up at my fiance at every turn. He bloody tries his damndest, gets up and showers and dresses every morning and is proactive in his search for a job. I've never met anyone who looks for a job as hard as he does. Unfortunately, he is having a hard time meeting anyone willing to give him a chance.
Well, one tabaret in the city took him on, on a casual, part time basis. But there's a couple of so called 'managers' there that just give him a hard time....because they're just bitches. He was doing his job tonight and a guy walked up to the bar, which Josh was covering for the bar attendant who went off somewhere. The guy ordered some drinks and wanted the seniors discount and when Josh asked politely to see his seniors card (just because you're older does not automatically mean you possess a seniors card) the guy started yelling at him and abusing him, calling Josh names and being a general asshole.
In the end, what did the manager do? Apologized to the guy and really paid Josh out, ending up by telling Josh "I don't want to deal with you right now, I don't wanna look at you, get out of my hair...".
Never even asked Josh for his side of the story. If you're a manager, isnt that one of the things you ask, when you're both in the office?
I came to see him after work, some time after this happened. Josh was telling me quietly what happened, when one of the friends of the abusive guy came up to Josh and apologized for his friends behaviour. Josh said it was fine, and talked to the guy a bit. Then, 5 minutes later, the abusive guy walked past, brushed right beside Josh and gave him and me a look. Walked by a couple of times. Wasnt even man enough to apologize for his own behaviour.
I had to refrain hard from giving the guy a piece of my mind. What an asshole!!!
The message Josh got tonight from both managers; the customer is always right and that their establishment are not interested in making sure the rights of staff are respected at ALL. Customers can speak how they want to staff. Josh learnt that some female staff have been called all sorts of degrading names. Nothing is ever said to the customer. Staff are just supposed to wear it because "thats the way this industry is".
Bullshit.
What kind of establishment lets this happen?! One that isn't run well and does not treat staff well.
We are trying our hardest to make a life here in Australia and I'm seeing for myself how hard it is for a new settler to even cop a break in this country. The one job that Josh has managed to score for himself is this poorly managed 'establishment'. Very frustrating.
I had a much friendlier reception in Canada then Josh is getting here, generally speaking.
I used to think this country was the shiznit. Starting to feel like we'd be better off in Toronto. Actually, wishing we were back there.
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
Yesterday vs Today
Yesterday was a great day!
I arranged for the day off work at RMIT so that I could assist a photographer I blogged about on here some time back, before I moved to Toronto
Philip Greenwood
Spent the day helping him out on a shoot he was doing, in a warehouse/studio space his friend owns. What a great space! It also is a 10 minute walk from my apartment.I just felt that this is what I want to do, to be a photographer. I know that being a self-employed photographer can be hard as you don't have the safety net of a boss paying your wage, superannuation et al every week but man, it'd be great to have ones own (thriving) business.
I walked home afterwards feeling inspired, in the beautiful spring-like sunny day.
Today, back at the desk trying to kill minutes and hours and trying not to glance at the clock as it makes these minutes seem like hours.....Feeling under the weather with this wierd dull pain at the back of my throat and neck and a headache that has been present since yesterday afternoon. I don't wanna be here and it's only 2:12 pm.
I have a job interview during my lunchbreak tomorrow. Need to rustle up some clothes from somewhere, by magic, prepare answers to any questions they might throw at me, and read up on their company. I need a full time job. I have no work as of now, from Monday next week on.
Yet, I feel no energy and no passion for it all. I just wanna go home and lie down. I'm fighting to keep my chin up and think and feel positive but I'm not quite getting there today.
I tossed up in my mind that I shouldnt whine on this blog and shouldnt whine in general. Then I thought "to hell with it" and typed this drizzle.
I arranged for the day off work at RMIT so that I could assist a photographer I blogged about on here some time back, before I moved to Toronto
Philip Greenwood
Spent the day helping him out on a shoot he was doing, in a warehouse/studio space his friend owns. What a great space! It also is a 10 minute walk from my apartment.I just felt that this is what I want to do, to be a photographer. I know that being a self-employed photographer can be hard as you don't have the safety net of a boss paying your wage, superannuation et al every week but man, it'd be great to have ones own (thriving) business.
I walked home afterwards feeling inspired, in the beautiful spring-like sunny day.
Today, back at the desk trying to kill minutes and hours and trying not to glance at the clock as it makes these minutes seem like hours.....Feeling under the weather with this wierd dull pain at the back of my throat and neck and a headache that has been present since yesterday afternoon. I don't wanna be here and it's only 2:12 pm.
I have a job interview during my lunchbreak tomorrow. Need to rustle up some clothes from somewhere, by magic, prepare answers to any questions they might throw at me, and read up on their company. I need a full time job. I have no work as of now, from Monday next week on.
Yet, I feel no energy and no passion for it all. I just wanna go home and lie down. I'm fighting to keep my chin up and think and feel positive but I'm not quite getting there today.
I tossed up in my mind that I shouldnt whine on this blog and shouldnt whine in general. Then I thought "to hell with it" and typed this drizzle.
Monday, July 03, 2006
The Fabulous Days Of Uncertainty
Some people yearn for weightlessness, to float and be free. What would uncertainty weigh?
It feels weightless, like an astronaut in space without an anchor. Yet, the feeling that accompanies this weightlessness feels heavy, for uncertainty brings worry.
Since Josh and I left Toronto, we've been floating in space. We arrived in Melbourne with no absolutes. Nothing that was certain. We had no home of our own, staying with my mum and stepdad in Seymour. We had no jobs. We had no idea of how to climb the brick walls that were thrown in front of us because of Josh's working holiday maker visa. He couldnt work in his own profession because of the fact that he isnt an Australian Resident. He couldnt work for any one employer for longer then 3 months. We had no idea of where we were gonna live, where we were gonna work, how we were going to come up with money to live and also pay off our very large debt we have between us. We didnt know how hard or long the road of immigration was in front of us.....
Well, we've been here 3 months now. We found an apartment in Yarraville. We found jobs through a temp agency. My job assignment ends this Friday, Josh has 6 weeks to go with his current, casual job. We hired a wedding planner and booked the venue in Hawaii, booked the photographer, had our wedding rings made.
I applied to The Flight Centre's ad for travel consultants that they have said they are willing to train. They sent me a generic email back thanking me for my application but "unfortunately I wasnt successful". I refused to give up after only one rejection, as I really want to work in the travel industry.
So I applied again.
They emailed me and said they were seriously considering my application and will get back to me. Whoa, I made a baby step!
Then they emailed me and said "thank you for your application but unfortunately you werent successful".
The only thing I can do is call Flight Centre's head office in Brisbane and ask to speak to someone that might know why my application keeps being rejected. Some feedback would be wonderful, instead of a 'you're not good enough for us' sorta email.
We both have NO idea if either one of us is going to get a permanent, full time, decent paying, job soon. I am applying for jobs but no progress has been made so far and I don't know where the next paycheck is coming from, to make rent, bills (for the both of us) and debt repayments. Let alone, how we're going to pay for the wedding, hefty immigration related costs, and other incidentals....
Forgive the whiny-tone of this entry. I'm feeling disheartened and a little nervous/scared right now.
Uncertainty isnt necessarily a bad thing, it can bump one out of their comfort zone and into action, new experiences, growing as a person etc.
When you're free falling and looking at the ground below....all you can think about is hitting it.
It feels weightless, like an astronaut in space without an anchor. Yet, the feeling that accompanies this weightlessness feels heavy, for uncertainty brings worry.
Since Josh and I left Toronto, we've been floating in space. We arrived in Melbourne with no absolutes. Nothing that was certain. We had no home of our own, staying with my mum and stepdad in Seymour. We had no jobs. We had no idea of how to climb the brick walls that were thrown in front of us because of Josh's working holiday maker visa. He couldnt work in his own profession because of the fact that he isnt an Australian Resident. He couldnt work for any one employer for longer then 3 months. We had no idea of where we were gonna live, where we were gonna work, how we were going to come up with money to live and also pay off our very large debt we have between us. We didnt know how hard or long the road of immigration was in front of us.....
Well, we've been here 3 months now. We found an apartment in Yarraville. We found jobs through a temp agency. My job assignment ends this Friday, Josh has 6 weeks to go with his current, casual job. We hired a wedding planner and booked the venue in Hawaii, booked the photographer, had our wedding rings made.
I applied to The Flight Centre's ad for travel consultants that they have said they are willing to train. They sent me a generic email back thanking me for my application but "unfortunately I wasnt successful". I refused to give up after only one rejection, as I really want to work in the travel industry.
So I applied again.
They emailed me and said they were seriously considering my application and will get back to me. Whoa, I made a baby step!
Then they emailed me and said "thank you for your application but unfortunately you werent successful".
The only thing I can do is call Flight Centre's head office in Brisbane and ask to speak to someone that might know why my application keeps being rejected. Some feedback would be wonderful, instead of a 'you're not good enough for us' sorta email.
We both have NO idea if either one of us is going to get a permanent, full time, decent paying, job soon. I am applying for jobs but no progress has been made so far and I don't know where the next paycheck is coming from, to make rent, bills (for the both of us) and debt repayments. Let alone, how we're going to pay for the wedding, hefty immigration related costs, and other incidentals....
Forgive the whiny-tone of this entry. I'm feeling disheartened and a little nervous/scared right now.
Uncertainty isnt necessarily a bad thing, it can bump one out of their comfort zone and into action, new experiences, growing as a person etc.
When you're free falling and looking at the ground below....all you can think about is hitting it.
Saturday, July 01, 2006
Whoops, there I is...
Well hello,
I've been gone so long I feel like a stranger to my own blog....
Been back on home soil for 3 months now. Feels like I never left. The streets are the same, people move with the same gait down Swanston Street, Bourke Street et al, Hard Rock Cafe stills stands opposite Metro Nightclub....
Yet I don't quite feel the same...
I could almost say that I fell asleep last night, laid my head down on my Melbourne pillow and dreamt I went to Canada. That, this morning, I got up and watched Canadian-dream cobwebs flutter from my eyes, disintegrating on the morning sunlight speckled floors of my Melbourne bedroom.
I'm unsure as to whether I find my hometown familiarity a welcome. I love my home city, with all it's hidden secret laneways, yet I don't think I was ready to return from the adventure.
I was just starting to like being out of my comfort zone.
I was ready to be with my family again. I missed them. My family are my heart. It's just that my limbs were starting to enjoy the run, starting to warm up with the blood rush, the adrenaline.
My year in Toronto, our trek through streets of Rome, Florence, Madrid, Toledo..... swimming in my head. I need to commit enough to the computer to get all those tales down. 1200 photos to crop, edit and post on my flickr account.....will do that someday soon.
Our first 3 months here have been.....challenging at nearly every turn. Still challenging, we keep trying for a break but brick walls are being put up for our efforts. This year is going to be a doozy; the wedding to plan in Hawaii ( the dates been set by the way, May 31st 2007! ), immigration to plough through, finding work other then temporary jobs, debt to keep paying. We keep our chins up and keep thinking positive and keep persisting after each knockdown, each job rejection, each hurdle.....
I kinda sound mechanical here, I know. I'm laying on the bed, using the laptop and feel kinda uncomfortable doing it so maybe it's reflecting on my entry here lol.
Anyway, I will return with some gossip and tales of our adventures. So much to tell, I really don't know where to begin. So much soul altering stuff, that happened quietly, subtley, but happened all the same. For the first time in my life, I didnt wanna find a keyboard and write about it, I wanted to just live it, let myself absorb it in the quiet parts of my soul.
There are some things that cant be told, only felt.
I've been gone so long I feel like a stranger to my own blog....
Been back on home soil for 3 months now. Feels like I never left. The streets are the same, people move with the same gait down Swanston Street, Bourke Street et al, Hard Rock Cafe stills stands opposite Metro Nightclub....
Yet I don't quite feel the same...
I could almost say that I fell asleep last night, laid my head down on my Melbourne pillow and dreamt I went to Canada. That, this morning, I got up and watched Canadian-dream cobwebs flutter from my eyes, disintegrating on the morning sunlight speckled floors of my Melbourne bedroom.
I'm unsure as to whether I find my hometown familiarity a welcome. I love my home city, with all it's hidden secret laneways, yet I don't think I was ready to return from the adventure.
I was just starting to like being out of my comfort zone.
I was ready to be with my family again. I missed them. My family are my heart. It's just that my limbs were starting to enjoy the run, starting to warm up with the blood rush, the adrenaline.
My year in Toronto, our trek through streets of Rome, Florence, Madrid, Toledo..... swimming in my head. I need to commit enough to the computer to get all those tales down. 1200 photos to crop, edit and post on my flickr account.....will do that someday soon.
Our first 3 months here have been.....challenging at nearly every turn. Still challenging, we keep trying for a break but brick walls are being put up for our efforts. This year is going to be a doozy; the wedding to plan in Hawaii ( the dates been set by the way, May 31st 2007! ), immigration to plough through, finding work other then temporary jobs, debt to keep paying. We keep our chins up and keep thinking positive and keep persisting after each knockdown, each job rejection, each hurdle.....
I kinda sound mechanical here, I know. I'm laying on the bed, using the laptop and feel kinda uncomfortable doing it so maybe it's reflecting on my entry here lol.
Anyway, I will return with some gossip and tales of our adventures. So much to tell, I really don't know where to begin. So much soul altering stuff, that happened quietly, subtley, but happened all the same. For the first time in my life, I didnt wanna find a keyboard and write about it, I wanted to just live it, let myself absorb it in the quiet parts of my soul.
There are some things that cant be told, only felt.
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