Kissed awake by gorgeous boyfriend this morning .....
Yeahhh not to shabby a way to wake up *wink*
Aforementioned gorgeous boyfriend had something up his sleeve this morning and departed with a sly grin before my sleepy self had brushed half-remembered dreams out of my eyes. Drifted off back to sleep with " WHAT is he up to ...." thoughts ...finally had enough of the zzzz's and luxuriated, like a lady-of-leisure, in our living room in my 'jama's until I heard his key in the door 10 minutes after rising.
He was back with my new addiction; a large French Vanilla Cappuccino ( ohhh mmmm you-so-fabulous ) and extras ( cheese croissants ). Oh and he'd been across the street and had booked and paid for a pedicure and a gel refill for my nails.
Theres no end to the utter spoiling.
He hung around at home whilst I spent 2 hours at the nail salon and another half hour of me meandering around stores nearby.We hung around the house after I got back then headed out to Silver City to see 'The Interpreter', which is a 5 minute walk away from us. He banned photo taking on our Date Nights but the camera was in my bag and the rain making Yonge Street glisten so prettily... well it was just killin me that I couldnt record tonight in some way so ... yeah three pics were taken ( sorry baby I had to lol ).....
The movie was a " I could have waited until it was out on dvd " deal but could've done worse. We walked home in the rain and threw on ' Jeepers Creepers ' and continued movie night at home ....and prepared to get spooked ...
But we just giggled our way through it....
I've had two and a half glasses of bourbon and coke and I'm feelin buzzed...whatta cheap date eh....?
Passover this weekend. Much family time and dinners this weekend. Josh will get to catch up with his older bro and sister-in-law this weekend, as they are flying in tomorrow from Boston... and I get to meet them for the first time !
The last three weeks have been a pleathora of firsts and new beginnings .... I think my head has just stopped spinnin .... I dunno ...I was beginning to resemble Linda Blair a la The Exorcist ...
More to report .. will log on tomorrow night hopefully ...
Message to you-yes you, you know who you are Mister Boofriend of mine.... I love you bigger then Canada !
- Lovesick ( and still dazed )in Toronto
Saturday, April 23, 2005
Thursday, April 07, 2005
Have You Ever ....
...felt so happy and amazed that you've cried ?
Oh dearrrrr me lol..... if you have a weak stomach look away now because I'm about to get sickening again...dont say I didnt warn ya...
Josh, this is for you babe.
I thought I knew all there was to know about being in a relationship with someone.
I thought there was only a distance any man could reach with me, before he came to a dead stop at my impenetrable wall, giving him no choice but to linger on the outside the rest of our time together.
Boyfriends ( and a fiance ) have been and gone and the wall has remained strong and intact. They gave up on penetrating it not long after butting heads with it and I let them, maybe even encouraged them to give up and we'd just resign ourselves to living on opposite sides of it.
And I resigned myself to the possibility that no one would ever have the courage and the fortitude to take a chisel to it or throw over a rope ladder fashioned out of trust and climb over to me. Even whilst I issued protestations and deployed other evasive methods out of a fear that feels as though it's existed in my soul long before I was even born.
But this was what I 'thought' I knew.
Until I met you.
And the amazement I feel springs from the realization that not only do I feel safe with you coming to me on my side of the wall ....I welcome you like a parched, dry-mouthed desert traveller would welcome a deep fresh-water spring. You've awoken so many beautiful emotions inside of me. You hold long hidden facets of my psyche softly in your cupped warm hands and reassure me there's nothing ugly or wrong there, that theres no need to hide them from you. It feels so raw and delicate but the cool air you're blowing on it all is a soothing balm.
Its always been about the other person in the past so its all strange and new having someone make me feel this special and happy.
My automatic response is to turn it around and focus on you, lavish affection and love on you but when you stop me and tell me " This is for you" ... and I paused and realized that I could accept it all, as it is ... on its own ...without guilt....it flicked on a switch somewhere. It was an invisible gift, one that no one has given me before.
I just keep on falling even deeper in love with you. It feels like an endless, wonderful fall into a sparkling nirvana.
Yesterday my emotions just bubbled to the surface in the only way they could at that moment; tears.
Yeah, you're spending your days and sharin your heart with a weird, strange girly... get used to that fact because ( as I tell ya on a regular basis ) I'm stickin to ya like Tarzan Grip bebe lol.
You are the most amazing man, babe, and you have my heart completely. You truly do make this world brighter and warmer and I know we could do anything together in it.
I love you honey.
Love T xxxooo
Oh dearrrrr me lol..... if you have a weak stomach look away now because I'm about to get sickening again...dont say I didnt warn ya...
Josh, this is for you babe.
I thought I knew all there was to know about being in a relationship with someone.
I thought there was only a distance any man could reach with me, before he came to a dead stop at my impenetrable wall, giving him no choice but to linger on the outside the rest of our time together.
Boyfriends ( and a fiance ) have been and gone and the wall has remained strong and intact. They gave up on penetrating it not long after butting heads with it and I let them, maybe even encouraged them to give up and we'd just resign ourselves to living on opposite sides of it.
And I resigned myself to the possibility that no one would ever have the courage and the fortitude to take a chisel to it or throw over a rope ladder fashioned out of trust and climb over to me. Even whilst I issued protestations and deployed other evasive methods out of a fear that feels as though it's existed in my soul long before I was even born.
But this was what I 'thought' I knew.
Until I met you.
And the amazement I feel springs from the realization that not only do I feel safe with you coming to me on my side of the wall ....I welcome you like a parched, dry-mouthed desert traveller would welcome a deep fresh-water spring. You've awoken so many beautiful emotions inside of me. You hold long hidden facets of my psyche softly in your cupped warm hands and reassure me there's nothing ugly or wrong there, that theres no need to hide them from you. It feels so raw and delicate but the cool air you're blowing on it all is a soothing balm.
Its always been about the other person in the past so its all strange and new having someone make me feel this special and happy.
My automatic response is to turn it around and focus on you, lavish affection and love on you but when you stop me and tell me " This is for you" ... and I paused and realized that I could accept it all, as it is ... on its own ...without guilt....it flicked on a switch somewhere. It was an invisible gift, one that no one has given me before.
I just keep on falling even deeper in love with you. It feels like an endless, wonderful fall into a sparkling nirvana.
Yesterday my emotions just bubbled to the surface in the only way they could at that moment; tears.
Yeah, you're spending your days and sharin your heart with a weird, strange girly... get used to that fact because ( as I tell ya on a regular basis ) I'm stickin to ya like Tarzan Grip bebe lol.
You are the most amazing man, babe, and you have my heart completely. You truly do make this world brighter and warmer and I know we could do anything together in it.
I love you honey.
Love T xxxooo
Playin In Canuckian Waters
Oh have I been a regular lazybum this past week !
I've been slidin outta bed around 10 am'ish each day, hovering over breakfast and peekin around in my regular net haunts, doin a little more organizing via phone with my financial biz back home in Aus, before pulling on my boots and wandering down Yonge Street and poking my nose in Toronto shopping life.
After the busy months just passed, this feels gooooooood!
I got the job at the chiro clinic and start on Monday ! At first it'll be around 29 hours a week so now I need to find a second job to sustain things until more hours are availabubble at this new job. My credit cards are takin punches like the credit-card men they are but they're startin to snarl dangerously at me so I'm crossing my fingers ( and eyes ) that the $$$ will start flowin in again kinddddda soonish.
I introduce myself each day to the city and the city smiles its charming hello back as I walk down Yonge Street. I'm dying to take the camera out and take portrait shots of the many faces of Toronto, its many frowns and grins.
Discovered a very New Orleans flavoured music store around the corner from home and spent a cool half hour talkin to its owner about blues & jazz music and N'awlins. He told me about a great little New Orleans radio station which I'm listening to online as I type. In case you're interested this is the radio stations online address.
This little treasure of a store will be haunt # 1 on my discovery list.
After my Yonge Street ambling, I stop at the Starbucks 6 doors down from home and get my cuppacino skim grande with hazelnut, cinnamon dusting its froth, and head home and sit down at the computer, under the living room window. Watching the ppl go by I contemplate the book I am determined to write before I leave this place. Thinking of Josh, counting the minutes until he gets home.
And I cant recall the last time where I've felt THIS happy and content and inspired in my life.
I've been slidin outta bed around 10 am'ish each day, hovering over breakfast and peekin around in my regular net haunts, doin a little more organizing via phone with my financial biz back home in Aus, before pulling on my boots and wandering down Yonge Street and poking my nose in Toronto shopping life.
After the busy months just passed, this feels gooooooood!
I got the job at the chiro clinic and start on Monday ! At first it'll be around 29 hours a week so now I need to find a second job to sustain things until more hours are availabubble at this new job. My credit cards are takin punches like the credit-card men they are but they're startin to snarl dangerously at me so I'm crossing my fingers ( and eyes ) that the $$$ will start flowin in again kinddddda soonish.
I introduce myself each day to the city and the city smiles its charming hello back as I walk down Yonge Street. I'm dying to take the camera out and take portrait shots of the many faces of Toronto, its many frowns and grins.
Discovered a very New Orleans flavoured music store around the corner from home and spent a cool half hour talkin to its owner about blues & jazz music and N'awlins. He told me about a great little New Orleans radio station which I'm listening to online as I type. In case you're interested this is the radio stations online address.
This little treasure of a store will be haunt # 1 on my discovery list.
After my Yonge Street ambling, I stop at the Starbucks 6 doors down from home and get my cuppacino skim grande with hazelnut, cinnamon dusting its froth, and head home and sit down at the computer, under the living room window. Watching the ppl go by I contemplate the book I am determined to write before I leave this place. Thinking of Josh, counting the minutes until he gets home.
And I cant recall the last time where I've felt THIS happy and content and inspired in my life.
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Hello Canuckia !
Wow ....where do I start ?!
It's been so long since I've been online,let alone made an entry in here, the keyboard is looking alien to me ha....
The last month or so leading up to leaving Australia was crazy chaos and stresssssssful.
I had to apply for a U.S visa because of a simple 3 hour layover at LAX. I wasnt eligible for the 90 day visa waiver program because I am going to be in North America for longer then 90 days. So it was a mad stressful rush of trying each day to get an appointment at the US embassy in Melbourne in time in order to process the visa in time for me to leave.
At one stage I wasnt able to get an appointment until the 23rd of March which meant that the Easter weekend fell pretty much straight after and I was leaving on the Easter Monday. So I was having to check the embassy site every day, relying, hoping, praying that someone would cancel any earlier appointment they were holding.
Arghhh !!
Josh checked the site one day, about 20 minutes after I had checked (and had no luck). He happened to have checked at the right time because an appointment for the 18th had just become available, so I left the new girl I was training at work to hold the forte and RUSHED to the internet cafe next door to try to snatch up the appointment before someone else did ( ya have to be lightening FAST to grab appointments as it turns out).
Thankfully I got it.
So, yeah, those weeks were a mad rush of getting documents, photos and id etc together, training the new girl to take over my position at work, spending as much time with my family as humanly possible, packing, shopping for warm clothes, closing bank accounts, writing up my resume,working two jobs and chasing up references etc and other general things one must take care of when they're moving to another country.
And somewhere in there, talk to my boy....
I was exhausted by the time I got on the plane at Melbourne, after tears had been shed with goodbyes to family members.
Anyway .... I'm in Canada as I speak !!
In the fabulous apartment Josh set up for us !
God did it feel good finally being with him again, seeing his face !
I think I've cuddled and kissed him non-stop since I got here.
He put together a 'Welcome to Canuckia ' package which was all layed out on the dresser when we got back to the apartment. My eyes did not know where to look first !
There was a babushka doll set, a BIG bottle of Tresor perfume , shower gel and body cream ( my favourite perfume ) which also came with a gift make up bag full of makeup and another perfume etc. There were tickets to the Joss Stone concert this June , tickets to Mamma Mia, a gift card to La Senza (lingerie) , bottles of wine from the places we're going to visit on the way back to Aus next March (one from Spain, one from Italy ) packaged together with pink champagne and ice wine on a silver platter tray, yummy chocolates from The Ultimate Truffle store, a cd of music he made for me, Body Shop gift sets filled with massage oil, their Sugar and Spice products and more.A subway and street directory. There was a bunch of Cara Lily's and white roses in a glass vase on the kitchen bench ......
I got spoiled ROTTEN ! Talk about bowl a girl over !
The best part though was being with him again...it felt like a dream.
We've spent pretty much every moment together, bar today because he had to go to work.We've gone out on REAL dates and sickened subway commuters by endless smooching and puppy-dog eye'sing each other on the train and allllll that gooey stuff.
It snowed the second morning here and I ran outside in my pj's to catch snowflakes. What ?! I've never seen snow FALL before so I was excited *wink*.
Met one of Josh's best friends ,Annette, on Saturday and then went to his family's house on Sunday for dinner. I was nervous both times but they're awesome ppl so it was great.
Went for a job interview yesterday but I was so nervous and had such a bad case of dry-mouth-itus that I walked outta the interview cringing at myself lol. Bad thing is , though , is that Josh and his mum are patients at this place ( its a chiropractic clinic in downtown Toronto )and have been selling me hard to this guy and that pretty much meant that the job should be in the bag for me right....so if I dont get it how lame is that ?
Lol.
Anyway, I'm writing a book here yet again so I shall shut up for the time being.
See ya soon !
Signed - Lovesick in Toronto
It's been so long since I've been online,let alone made an entry in here, the keyboard is looking alien to me ha....
The last month or so leading up to leaving Australia was crazy chaos and stresssssssful.
I had to apply for a U.S visa because of a simple 3 hour layover at LAX. I wasnt eligible for the 90 day visa waiver program because I am going to be in North America for longer then 90 days. So it was a mad stressful rush of trying each day to get an appointment at the US embassy in Melbourne in time in order to process the visa in time for me to leave.
At one stage I wasnt able to get an appointment until the 23rd of March which meant that the Easter weekend fell pretty much straight after and I was leaving on the Easter Monday. So I was having to check the embassy site every day, relying, hoping, praying that someone would cancel any earlier appointment they were holding.
Arghhh !!
Josh checked the site one day, about 20 minutes after I had checked (and had no luck). He happened to have checked at the right time because an appointment for the 18th had just become available, so I left the new girl I was training at work to hold the forte and RUSHED to the internet cafe next door to try to snatch up the appointment before someone else did ( ya have to be lightening FAST to grab appointments as it turns out).
Thankfully I got it.
So, yeah, those weeks were a mad rush of getting documents, photos and id etc together, training the new girl to take over my position at work, spending as much time with my family as humanly possible, packing, shopping for warm clothes, closing bank accounts, writing up my resume,working two jobs and chasing up references etc and other general things one must take care of when they're moving to another country.
And somewhere in there, talk to my boy....
I was exhausted by the time I got on the plane at Melbourne, after tears had been shed with goodbyes to family members.
Anyway .... I'm in Canada as I speak !!
In the fabulous apartment Josh set up for us !
God did it feel good finally being with him again, seeing his face !
I think I've cuddled and kissed him non-stop since I got here.
He put together a 'Welcome to Canuckia ' package which was all layed out on the dresser when we got back to the apartment. My eyes did not know where to look first !
There was a babushka doll set, a BIG bottle of Tresor perfume , shower gel and body cream ( my favourite perfume ) which also came with a gift make up bag full of makeup and another perfume etc. There were tickets to the Joss Stone concert this June , tickets to Mamma Mia, a gift card to La Senza (lingerie) , bottles of wine from the places we're going to visit on the way back to Aus next March (one from Spain, one from Italy ) packaged together with pink champagne and ice wine on a silver platter tray, yummy chocolates from The Ultimate Truffle store, a cd of music he made for me, Body Shop gift sets filled with massage oil, their Sugar and Spice products and more.A subway and street directory. There was a bunch of Cara Lily's and white roses in a glass vase on the kitchen bench ......
I got spoiled ROTTEN ! Talk about bowl a girl over !
The best part though was being with him again...it felt like a dream.
We've spent pretty much every moment together, bar today because he had to go to work.We've gone out on REAL dates and sickened subway commuters by endless smooching and puppy-dog eye'sing each other on the train and allllll that gooey stuff.
It snowed the second morning here and I ran outside in my pj's to catch snowflakes. What ?! I've never seen snow FALL before so I was excited *wink*.
Met one of Josh's best friends ,Annette, on Saturday and then went to his family's house on Sunday for dinner. I was nervous both times but they're awesome ppl so it was great.
Went for a job interview yesterday but I was so nervous and had such a bad case of dry-mouth-itus that I walked outta the interview cringing at myself lol. Bad thing is , though , is that Josh and his mum are patients at this place ( its a chiropractic clinic in downtown Toronto )and have been selling me hard to this guy and that pretty much meant that the job should be in the bag for me right....so if I dont get it how lame is that ?
Lol.
Anyway, I'm writing a book here yet again so I shall shut up for the time being.
See ya soon !
Signed - Lovesick in Toronto
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