Sooky La-La

Maya Sleeps, originally uploaded by Luminosity.

Was in the supermarket, flicking through the weekly magazines (I never actually BUY them pffft, quick flick through and I know what's what in the world) when I came across an article about one of our local tv stars daughter.

She and her husband were expecting their baby and she had finally gone into labour. She had practised a lot of hypnotherapy during her pregnancy so she spent a lot of her labour quiet and focused, the atmosphere was peaceful.

At hour 18 of her labour, her healthy baby suddenly seemed to be in acute distress, out of the blue. Then, just as quickly...the baby's heartbeat couldn't be found...it had stopped. Her baby had died. Just like that.

She obviously had to keep on pushing and deliver her baby and gave birth to a 10 pound baby girl. They were surprised at this as there had been no indication from midwives in her prenatal care that the baby was this size. Upon delivery, their daughter was handed to her daddy who then spent time quietly and lovingly bathing her and then gently cuddling her. The couple remarked that she just looked like she was asleep and had her dads forehead and her mums face. They had a photo of her and she really DID just look like she was asleep, such a beautiful little girl. There was also a photo of her hand being held by either her mum or her dad, her finger curled around the bigger finger of her parent.

They told how they had to leave 3 hours later, not wanting to stay in the maternity ward any longer and not knowing what to say to the midwives. This poor couple had arrived excited about the impending birth of their baby and left empty handed, their little angel lifeless in the room.

I couldn't help it, it was so so sad and I just started crying in the aisle of the supermarket. I felt my lower lip tremble downwards and just wanted to sob because I really really related to how they must have felt. That's just heartbreaking. It makes me wanna wake Maya up and cuddle her.